Reason

Reason

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

What is Love?


































What is love? Do these pictures describe love or is it more to it?
no one seems to know how to describe it..they say they just do they just know. But I want to know what love is. Is it how I feel or do I feel something else.
What is love?

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Trying not to Shatter


























Life is hard. Everyone fights there own battles.  Everyone has different battles. To some people others battles will look simple or small, but to that one person it could be killing them.  Have you ever felt like people weren't hearing what you were saying? You knew they were there for you but you don't feel like they are actually listening to what you are saying. In my family I have three younger brothers and my parents are split.  The oldest of my younger brothers lives with my dad, the rest of us live with my mom.  Our family is full of fighting, and not being heard. Everyone wants to be the victim, wants to place the guilt on someone else. It's never their fault, never their responsibility. They place the blame on other people. Mainly it's me. Maybe it's because they think I can handle it the best, but the truth is that it makes me bitter and angry and it's about to break me. I used to be a happy go lucky down to earth kind of girl. Now I am bitter and angry at the world. I hate myself. I want to be the old Jess. I want help getting there. Because I know I cannot get there on my own. My dad points out all the things that I have failed, the things that I have done wrong. My mom points out all the things I need to do, and when I do them I get nothing in return. My friends are usually there for me. Some tend to only talk to me when I am happy, or okay as they put it. The truth is, I don't even know what happy is anymore. I can get close to happiness, but never hit it head on. Life is hard. I am fighting my battle..waiting on someone to rescue me.